Heartweed: Chapter 29

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Chapter 29

Artie pulled on her trousers. They were splattered with her blood around the waistband. The long shirt she had been dressed in fell to mid-thigh and covered most of it.
Her boots and socks lay beneath the trousers. There was no sign of her jacket, t-shirt or bra. Artie guessed that they still lay where she’d left them in Gorth’s cellar. She pulled on her socks and laced her boots.
She could hear Birtta moving in the conservatory. Artie leaned backwards and peered around the double doors. The light spilling into the glass-walled room was stained green by its filtering through the leaves of the many clambering plants that competed for space.
A long bench stood against the far side. Glassware and metalware that looked like parts of a chemistry set – or maybe an alchemy set, judging from its weightiness and irregularity – clustered on the bench. There was no pattern to them, they hadn’t yet been configured into a meaningful structure.  A brown liquid lurked in a flask alone in the centre of the bench. More of the tincture Birttta had given her?
Artie glanced at the brown bottle on the table near her and then back to where Birtta was working. She let her hand drift to take the bottle and pushed it to the bottom of the deep pocket on the outside of her thigh. She wet her lips and stepped backwards softly into the archway between the back room and the front.
The front room of the house was just as bare as the one she had left. To her right another door opened onto the hallway and through it she could see the start of the stairs and the heavy front door with its stained glass panel.
With one more glance back at the engrossed Birtta, Artie turned and swiftly made her way to the front door.
She twisted the brass knob and the door clicked easily and swung open. She felt the parasite in her stir and respond to the warm touch of the afternoon sunshine. Beyond the short front garden was a quiet street, but Artie could hear the sounds both of the river and of traffic on a nearby road.
“Where are you going?”
Artie spun to see Blue, back in his businessman glamour, at the top of the stairs staring down at her. She backed across the threshold of the door.
“Going to finish what I started.”
Blue advanced slowly down the stairs. “That is a bad idea. March will kill you, if the heartweed parasite does not consume you first.”
Behind her the gate creaked, Artie turned to see Matthew coming up the path, carrier bags in both hands.
“What’s going on?” He looked between Artie and Blue.
“Do not allow her to leave.”
Matthew looked at Artie. His stance wavered and he glanced again between Blue and Artie.
“Please.” Matthew spread his arms farther apart, as if to corral her. “You shouldn’t go until we’ve figured out–”
Artie heard the whisper of Blue’s clothes as he moved from almost the top of the stairs to behind her within the space of a breath. The sound snapped her indecision. She grabbed Matthew by his lapels and thrust him past her back into the house. He flew faster and harder than she intended; she was just learning this new strength. Artie heard the dull thump of bodies colliding and glanced over her shoulder to see Blue and Matthew  sprawled backwards together onto the floor. Then she ran.
Artie ran and she loved it. The speed, the power – she had never felt anything like this before. She had tapped into a boundless energy and felt that she could run until the shoes wore from her feet and not be tired. The parasite stretched out, its non-physical presence extending far beyond the confines of her body. It lashed out behind her – pushing her on. It reached out in front of her – grasping at the world and pulling her forwards.
She was aware of a couple on the pavement turning to gape as she hared past them, flowing around them without checking her stride. Her change in direction causing no change in her pace. She raced across a busy road, the sounds of horns and squealing brakes already left far behind her.
There was a path between two houses and Artie darted along it. It came out opposite a stone wall topped with tall iron railings. At this sight Artie transitioned from a sprint to a stop without a judder. She wasn’t even out of breath.
The walls enclosed the cemetery, its high gates now locked for the evening. Artie measured the height of the gates with her eyes. She flexed her feet, rolling from her toes to her heels and then back again. Her knees bent only a little, but she could feel the tremendous potential energy within herself.
She sprang, releasing it all in a burst that carried her up high over the gates. Artie laughed. She reached the pinnacle of her jump and for a second it felt like she would just keep on going, carried like a kite on the wind.
She landed and began to run again, zigzagging from the path, dodging between trees and brambles and the grave.
Despite everything that had happened over the past weeks she felt a rising joy. A joy in her pure speed and strength. A joy which turned her mouth dry in terror, because it was not her joy. These feelings belonged to it. To the thing inside her. The heartweed. The parasite. It was feeling, and she could feel its feelings.
The thought made her lose concentration; she tripped and sprawled heavily onto ground, narrowly missing mashing her face into the wide trunk of a beech tree. Artie lay face down on the dank, sun-starved earth. Her breathing was ragged, but she knew it was with fear, not exertion. She concentrated on steeling her mind against the parasite. The misty glass barrier that Birtta’s potion had set in place still stood fast between her and it. The parasite had made no attempts to break through. Yet she was aware of the glow of its giddy happiness, and also of a diffuse sense of curiosity, a tentative reaching.
Let’s see what else we can do.
Artie was almost sure that the thought was hers. She was fast and she was strong – everything that Gorth had promised her. She could walk right up to March and snap him in two. But she had to find him first.
She pushed herself back into a kneeling position and looked around. The area under the beech tree was cool and still, surrounded on three sides by twisted coils of blackberry and on the other by ivy-swamped headstones. She let her eyes drift out of focus and searched for the currents of magic that she had seen before.
For minutes the world faced her looking nothing but normal, then – as if she had been seeing it all along without really noticing – the overlaying swirls of power became clear to her. She could see the cracks between the reality of matter that they seeped in and out of. She reached out with the unreal, parasite part of herself and pushed it into a crack.
With a groan it split wider. She saw the shadowy maelstrom through the gap and beyond – a bright something. The parasite brought sensations back to her that her mind translated as taste – grainy and sweet and moreish. Artie swayed towards the gap.
She heard the patter of four swift feet; the low sun cast a long, lupine shadow on the ground beside her. Artie looked up in time to see two-legged Matthew step towards her between the gravestones.
“Back off,” Artie said, holding her voice low.
Matthew held his hands up and stopped. He squinted at the patch of reality Artie had broken open. Then blinked, shook his head and turned back to face her.  Could he see it, Artie wondered.
“Please, don’t go. Don’t go to Faerie – Birtta said it could destroy you.”
“If I get to kill the creature that killed my brother first then I would consider it a fair trade.”
Matthew’s eyes slid back towards the area of disturbance. He frowned again, confused. He couldn’t see it, Artie realised. He could tell that something was there, but he couldn’t see the way reality fit together, r could be pulled apart. Not the was she could.
“Come back to Blue’s house with me. Please. We can help you get March.”
Artie made a dismissive noise. “Help me kill him, would you?”
Matthew grimaced. “Well, no. Not in cold-blood.” He hurried on when Artie’s lips curled. “But we could bring him to some sort of justice. As I understand it, that’s what Blue does. He polices the interactions between faeries and humans. Officially. With authority from the Queen of Faerie. He could bring March to her for punishment.”
Artie only half heard Matthew’s words. The parasite nagged for her attention. Its tendrils spread through the shadows. She followed them with her mind, groping her way towards what it wanted her to see – the place where the shadows grew thinner, where the bright flickers showed. She saw the suggestion of some other thing beneath them, like a familiar shape beneath a dark, draped fabric.
“So how about it?” Matthew continued. “Come back. We’ll have that pizza and figure out what to do.”
“How about no. If your friend Blue was any good, he would have stopped March from kidnapping and killing my brother.” Matthew opened his mouth, but Artie ploughed on, not wanting to give him a chance to speak. “”He was ther. He saw, he knew what was happening.”
Matthew shut his mouth, his teeth gave a hollow snap when they connected.
The parasite was nagging her again. She could feel it pushing its way through the shadows. The shape at the other end was more familiar now. March’s house. Yes., Artie thought. The pulse of her assent travelled down the outstretched tendrils of the parasite. When it arrived at the farthest end it gave the final push that allowed the parasite to break through from the shadows and into Faerie.
Nectar.
Artie’s lips slipped apart. She felt her eyes widen. Her breath caught in her throat. The taste. It tasted so good.
She saw concern cross Matthew’s face and he took a step towards her, hand outstretched. But she was already going. The parasite pulled at her. A child tugging at its parent’s hand – eagerness turning to insistence. She felt its glee and its need. Its cravings wracked her body like they were her own. She closed her eyes and fell into the sensations coming from the parasite. The hunger. It gorged on the brightness. She could see the shape of March’s house floating behind her eyelids. The parasite pleaded and pulled; with her mind fixed on March’s manor, Artie agreed. The parasite poured itself through the shadows; Artie flung herself after it; surrendering to the feeling of falling.

Heartweed: Chapter 28

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Chapter  28

“Insane?”
“Utterly,” Birtta said. “Mind shattered into pieces. No pattern or logic to fused the shards together. Trapped in a terrifying and changeable reality, battering itself against the edged trying to escape, like a bird against a window.”
“Gorth didn’t tell me that. ” Artie’s voice echoed dully in her ears.
“I imagine not,” Blue said. “He told you that it would be the shortcut to power and strength. And you thought ‘cool’ and didn’t even consider the price.”
Artie stared into the face of Blue’s cold distain; loathing almost overwhelmed her, loathing for this smug faerie bastard and his wiser-than-thou attitude. What the hell did he know about her and her choices?
“I did consider it.” She fired each word like a dart at Blue. “He told me the price. That it would kill me. I accepted that price. I’d have enough time to avenge my brother, to kill March. He threatened my friends and family. My life for all of theirs? Fair trade.” Artie jutted her chin. “I’m not stupid. I know it wouldn’t come for free. I knew it would kill me.”
“If you are lucky.” For the first time, Birtta’s clinical tone softened with sympathy. “Those hosts that the parasite doesn’t kill it renders immortal and eventually immobile. The madness waxes and wanes seasonally. There are times when the hosts wake into sanity – unable to move, unable to die, and fully aware of what has befallen them.” She did not meet Artie’s eyes. “They often cry at those times.”
Artie felt cold all over. But most of all she felt the cold, hard knot in her chest. The parasite. She imagined that she could feel it moving in there, stretching out through her body. Unless it wasn’t her imagination. She placed the flat of her hand on her chest. No heartbeat. No pain either.
She parted the neck of the white men’s shirt that they had dressed her in and looked. There was no scar. Her skin was white, smooth and unblemished. Artie looked up to find Birtta watching her.
“Why doesn’t anyone put them out of their misery?”
“We offer. Sometimes they accept. Sometimes they cannot.”
“Birtta’s people are the guardians of the last few remaining heartweeds,” Blue said. “They treat the sufferers and search for a cure. And ensure that the species does not propagate.” Blue’s voice held a cutting edge that was parried by the flash of steel in the look Birtta gave him. She turned back to Artie.
“Yours is the first seed to have escaped in over four hundred years. You are quite unique. A new heartweed, and a human. Implanted, not ingested.”
Her eyes glowed and she reached out a hand, almost involuntarily, to touch Artie’s face. Artie felt something prickle and stir within her chest: a tendril uncurling, reaching.
“It likes you,” Artie said.
A flicker of untarnished horror crossed Birtta’s face, but she withdrew her hand slowly and her voice, when she spoke, was even.
“Well I suppose our species are cousins of a sort.”
A thick silence invaded the room.
Neither Birtta or Matthew met Artie’s eyes. Blue stared straight at her and Artie liked that even less. She turned her head away from him and drew her knees to her chest.
Artie stomach gave a loud growl; she felt rather than saw the others jump at the sudden noise.
“I guess you need to feed me.” Artie gave a weak smile. “Being on the receiving end of amateur heart surgery really takes it out of you.”
“Right.” Matthew shook himself into action. “OK. What’ll it be? Shall I order a pizza?” He looked around at the two faeries and Artie. Artie’s stomach growled again.
“Pizza it is then. Where’s the landline phone?”
Blue shook his head. “No phone.”
“Well I don’t have my mobile with me.” He quirked the corner of his mouth. “They don’t travel well with me shapeshifted. I learned that the hard way.”
“The girl has one,” Blue said. “Use it.”
The girl. Artie grimaced up at the Gentry fae. His high-handed ways and icicle eyes were really starting to wear on her. She opened her mouth, but realised she had no response that wasn’t just a variant of ‘screw you’.
“Is that OK?” Matthew asked her. She shrugged and nodded.
Her bloodied trousers were heaped in the corner of the room. Artie guessed that the rest were still where she’d left them in Gorth’s cellar. Matthew fished through the pockets and pulled out her phone. He held down the power button.
“It needs a pin.”
He held the phone out to Artie. She took it and swiped in the unlock code, but didn’t hand it back.
“I could call the police on you.”
“And tell them what.” Blue’s cold voice seemed edged with amusement; Artie tightened her shoulders and ignored him.
“That you’ve kidnapped me.”
“Please don’t,” Matthew said.
“She will not.”
So much for ignoring Blue. Artie spun to give him a piece of her mind and found herself watching his back as he glided from the room. She turned back to Matthew.
“Is he always such a dickhead?”
She handed the phone to him.
“I don’t know. I only met him on Tuesday.”
Tuesday – the day she had gone to meet Gorth. Artie frowned.
“What day is it today?”
“Thursday,” Matthew said. The phone in his hand erupted into beeps and buzzes, as message after message registered.
“My parents have probably already called the police.”
Matthew handed the phone back to her. “Maybe you should call them. They’ll be frantic with worry.”
“And tell them what?” Artie closed her eyes and snorted softly as she heard herself echo Blue’s words.
“That you’re OK.”
“Am I?”
She looked back up at Matthew, his face was etched with discomfort. “I’ll go fetch some food from the shop instead. Let you decide what to do.”
“Aren’t you afraid they’ll trace the call here or something?”
“Blue did some complicated piece of magic around it,” Birtta said. “He said that this house would be protected from such things.”
Artie had almost forgotten about Birtta. The faerie woman continued:
“Matthew, please go get food for our guest and for yourself. I will keep watch over her and make sure that she is well.”
Matthew nodded. To Artie’s surprise he took her hand and gave it a squeeze. He left the room and a second later Artie heard the sound of a heavy door thudding open and shut.
“He is a father,” Birtta said. Artie looked at her in surprise. “He has a daughter not much younger than you, or so he told me when you were unconscious. I would theorise that this prior relationship makes him protective of you.” She spread her hands wide. “My people do not have those sorts of relationships, but I can imagine the bonds they incur.”
She gestured at the phone in Artie’s hands.
“Are you going to call your own mother and father?”

The phone felt heavy as she lifted it to her ear. The call connected and she heard only a single ring before it was answered.
“Artie?” Her mum’s voice was stretched.
Artie swallowed; her mouth was dry. “It’s me.”
“Are you OK? Where are you?”
“Mum, I’m sorry.”
Everything that Artie had experienced over the past few days, everything that she had tamped down inside herself, welled up in her throat. It threatened to break free and wash her away.
Artie swallowed again. “I’m fine. I’ll come back soon. Please don’t worry.”
She hung up quickly so she didn’t have to hear her mum’s reaction to those horrible words. She just wanted to go home, to curl up on her bed  with her mum stroking her hair – like when she was a child. Hot tears built behind Artie’s eyes and she knew that if she let go know she would just fall to the floor in a sobbing mess and never get up again.
Into her anguish she felt an intrusion. The feeling of something else being there, something alien. The presence that had travelled through her dreams with her. It was there and it pushed against her. It stretched out its feelers like it was looking for cracks in her, cracks it could worm its way into and push wide open.
“What’s the matter?” Birtta’s concerned face was close to Artie’s.
“The thing.”
“The parasite?”
“I can feel it.” Artie whispered. “It’s trying to get into my mind.”
“Push it away. Stop it.”
“I’m trying.” Artie brought her fists to her temples. The squirming, probing sensation intensified. It circumvented every thought she sent to push it away. “It keeps coming back.”
Birtta hurried away into the conservatory. “Burn it.” She threw over her shoulder. “They fear fire.”
Burn it? Another exploratory tendril pushed against her mind. Artie blocked it and it smoothly slid to another point of attack, another memory, another weakness.
Artie closed her eyes and imagined a bright flame: blue and intent like the flame of a bunsen burner. She blasted that thought at the invading parasite.
It flinched.
“Burn. Burn. Burn.” Artie chanted in her mind adding fuel to her fire with each word.
The tendrils fled, their tips blackened. Artie thought she could hear a high-pitched squealing.
Birtta returned with a brown glass bottle. She unscrewed the lid and revealed a glass pipette attached to the underside. there was a line marked on to the glass and a brown liquid filled up to the line.
“Take this.” Birtta handed the pipette over. “Swallow.”
“What is it?”
“A variation on the substance that I injected you with earlier. It will help keep the mental symptoms of the heartweed parasite at bay.”
Artie stared at the peaty liquid. She remembered how the injection had weakened her. Sensing her reluctance, the parasite stirred again in her mind.
Artie squeezed the dropper into her mouth. The initial sharp shock of bitterness mutated into a sickly sweet aftertaste that clung to her teeth. Almost immediately the sense of the parasite’s infiltrating feelers diminished in her mind. It was as if a sheet of glass had been set between her and it. The parasite could push at that smooth surface all it wanted, but find no cracks. There was no way in.
Artie handed the dropper back to Birtta.
“You said ‘the mental symptoms’. What about the physical effects? Does that stuff make me weak, like the injection did?”
“Slightly weaker than if you were fully integrated, but much stronger than any human has a right to be.”
“How about the magical bits?”
Birtta stiffened. “Stay away from using magic or being too near it, if you want to stay alive and sane. The parasite feeds on it.” She pursed her lips. “Had you been in Faerie when you became infected, we probably would not have been able to save you.”
Birtta put the brown bottle down on the windowsill.
“You should practise the mental discipline of resisting the parasite and keeping ti from your mind, but that tincture will help you. We shall start you out at three times a day and see how things go.”
“For how long?” Artie sprang to her feet. “I mean, what happens now? Do you cure me? Do I just go mad more slowly? Die more slowly?”
Birtta’s smooth face wrinkled in to a troubled expression.
“I have no answers. I have worked with and studied the heartweeds for all of my life, but for you I have no answers. You are-”
“Unique. Yeah, you said.” Artie held her hand up in front of her face. She curled and uncurled her finger, feeling the wiry vines of the parasite coiling and uncoiling within them.
She shivered.

Heartweed: Chapter 27

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Chapter 27

An unfamiliar face leaned over her. A man – definitely human, with light brown hair and a square jaw – held her down onto a hard surface by the upper arms. A woman was leaning in to inject something into Artie’s arm. It burnt like acid in her veins. Artie clamped her teeth together.
The long red hair brushed back from the woman’s face as she straightened. A faerie. Artie thrashed; the man’s hands came loose. She leapt up and ran for the door. He grabbed at her and she turned and pushed him. She pushed at him; something uncoiled within her arm muscles like a whip snap. He flew across the room and crashed into the table Artie had been laid on.
Amazement brought Artie to a halt. She had thrown that guy across the room. The pure mechanical power she had felt channeling through her… She guessed she’d got her money’s worth.
A second man, the suited one who had followed her from the bar to the cellar, stepped towards her. He blocked the way to the door.
Artie’s eyes raked the room, searching for another way out. The room she was in, bare but for the table that she had been laid on, seemed like a room in any normal house. Behind her double-width, glass patio doors lead through into a conservatory choked with greenery, they stood half open but the faerie woman was blocking that exit. The door behind the suited guy lead into an equally bare room. A bay window at the end of that room gave Artie a view onto a quiet street. There would be a front door somewhere there too. That was her way out.
She looked up into the cold, near-black eyes of the man in the suit. She would just have to go through him. Artie tensed all of her muscles and felt the peculiar, wiry additions that stretched through her coiling as tight as an overwound spring.
Artie began to leap. Weakness washed over her. A slithering slackness stupefied her limbs. Then the pain started. A fire in her chest that sent pulses of agony through her. Her knees buckled.
“I think you overdid it,” the man behind her said.
“Trial and error.” The faerie woman’s voice was cool.
Artie, on her knees, swayed forwards. She had no strength to raise her arms and was sure she would have landed on her face on the floor if the suited man had not caught her by the shoulder.
He crouched lithely beside her and lifted her in his arms like she weighed nothing at all. He laid her back on the bare table in the middle of the room. Artie’s limbs felt like sacks full of damp flour. She struggled to roll her head to the side to watch the strange trio.
“Where am I? Who are you? And what did you do to me?” He voice quivered at the last sentence and Artie clamped her jaw shut on it.
The square-faced man came to her side. He picked up her hand from teh table and held it. Artie felt a wave of irritation and wanted to shake it off.
“I’m Matthew.” He smiled, a soothing smile that didn’t touch his worried eyes. “And you’re in a house in York. Blue’s house.” He nodded his head towards the other man, now leaning against the wall. “We are trying to save your life.”
As Artie stared at him she could see the swirling overlays creeping back into her vision. She fought to relax into the vision and concentrate on it at the same time. The swirls flowed towards the tall, suited man against the wall. They crawled all over his short black hair, so dark a black as to appear almost blue, and over the fine, strongly defined lines of his face. Artie concentrated harder on the wriggling shapes and with a thought seemed to brush them away. The reality beneath the glamour caused her to scramble back along the table’s surface.
The alien eyes, the knife-sharp cheekbones and jawline, and hair the deep blue of a peacock’s chest hanging straight down to his waist. Gentry.
“You’re the faerie from March’s party.” Artie spat. “You work for him.”
She kept her eyes on him as she pushed herself towards the edge of the table. The Gentry man – Blue, Matthew had called him – neither moved nor spoke. She could see the sword now, still sheathed at his hip. Time to try the other escape route, through the back.
Artie started to push herself off the edge of the table, to stand, but a dizzy wave of vertigo washed through her. She squeezed her eyes closed against it and gripped the hard lip of the table. She felt firm hands on her upper arms and heard the voice of the man, Matthew, trying for soothing tones:
“It’s OK. He doesn’t work for March… I’m certain.”
Artie grunted.
“Fascinating.” The faerie woman’s cool, clear voice pierced into Artie like a lancet. “She can already see through glamours. What else can you do?”
Artie opened her eyes. The red-haired woman was staring at her, her eyes sharp with interest. Artie met them with a glare.
“I can see that you’re a faerie. A dryad, like Gorth.”
“Correct, but not difficult as I am not glamoured.” She lifted a soft, white hand towards Matthew. “And him?”
Artie turned towards Matthew. He stepped back and spread his arms wide as if to show off a new shirt.
“Human. No…” Something tickled at the edge of Artie’s vision, not an overlaid image, but a flicker of something watching from the man’s shadow. She squinted. A flash of amber eyes, graphite fur. “Wolf. Werewolf?”
Matthew grinned. “Nearly. Shaman and shapeshifter. Though wolf is my preferred form.”
The dryad spoke across the two of them to Blue.
“Her condition is much more advanced than I would have expected. Especially in a human and in the human realm. Probably as a result of the direct implantation.”
She eyed Artie again with an interest that was almost hungry. Something inside Artie snapped.
“Just you shut up. I’m not your bloody science experiment.”
“No.” Blue’s voice was like liquid metal. “You are a reckless fool who has placed herself and possibly many others in considerable danger.” He met her angry gaze with hard eyes. “For what? What did Gorth promise you? Magic? Power? Beauty? Immortality?”
Artie stared into his face, unreadable and immobile. She tried to look past the Gentry features, but all she could see was a creature like the one who killed her brother.
“Vengeance,” she whispered.
A shadow crossed Blue’s face and his well-water eyes filled with anguish; Artie realised, with surprise, he looked nothing like March. “It is never worth it.” The words carried a hollow echo.
Then the shadow dissipated and his tone became brisk. “The violinist?”
Artie nodded. “My brother. March killed him.”
Matthew put his hand on her arm again. “I’m sorry.”
“Yeah.” Artie blinked. She took a deep breath and shook her shoulders. “So tell me who you are and what the hell is going on.”
She looked up at Blue. “You say you don’t work for March. And you’re obviously not friends of Gorth or you wouldn’t have attacked him. So who do you work for and what do you want with me?”
“I work for the Queen of Faerie,” Blue said. A disbelieving laugh rushed to Artie’s throat, but Blue’s serious face quelled it. She remembered that Gorth had also mentioned a queen. Blue continued, gesturing at the red-haired dryad. “Birtta is here in a consulting capacity. Matthew–”
“I don’t work for anyone. I’m human, independent and on your side here.” He fixed her with his sincere eyes. She recognised the almost parental worry in them. “I’ll make sure nothing bad happens to you.”
“Too late.” Blue’s words were chill.
Matthew flared. “If you hadn’t got in my way–”
“The blame is shared.” Blue raised his hands, palms out, and stepped closer. He turned to Artie. “Our respective investigations into Gorth’s activities clashed in the alley on Tuesday night. By the time we formed an understanding it was too late to save you.”
Artie stared back and forth between the two men. Irritation pinched her face. “I don’t need saving.”
Matthew gave her a look that begged to differ; her irritation turned to fury.
“I don’t. I volunteered for this. March killed my brother. He’s going to kill my parents and my friends. This way I can kill him first. Make them safe.”
“By letting someone you barely know perform amateur heart surgery on you?” Matthew said.
Artie shrugged and Matthew threw up his hands. He turned away from her, trying and failing to hide his loss of temper from her.
“Gorth lied to you.” Blue said softly.
“What?” Artie turned to him. “About what?”
“About what the parasite would do to you.”
“No.” Artie gave a single shake of her head. “He said it would make me strong, strong enough to kill March. And it did. I threw him across the room.” She lifted her chin in challenge at the Gentry fae. “You made me weak when you injected me. I think you’re the one who’s lying.”
The words hung in the room like smoke. Artie and Blue stared at each other. Or at least she glared at him and he met her glare with a dispassionate regard.
Birtta broke the silence.
“You are strong. And fast. And magical. But you would have never been able to use these skills against Lord March. What Gorth neglected to tell you is that if Blue,” she paused, “and Matthew, had not got to you in time, the parasite would have taken over your mind and body completely, and driven you insane.”

Heartweed: Chapter 26

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Chapter 26

The dream began in darkness. Artie floated in a soundless void. Her skin prickled, then a flood of sensations poured over her: hot, sharp, silken, electric, rough, soothing, cold. She stretched her fingertips wide, she stretched more, stretched further, stretched beyond her fingertips.
She was more than she had been. Long tendrils of her lashed out into the darkness, seeking something. Artie concentrated and drew those tendrils in; she curled and uncurled them like a fist.
She became aware of a low growling noise that grew higher and louder until she wanted to throw her hands over her ears and scream for it to stop. The sound dropped away back to the low sound like the slow grate of stone over stone, like the sound of the world moving and shifting around her.
The darkness split open into a light so bright that she tried to snap her eyes closed. In this dream she had no eyelids. The light modulated through the spectrum and from bright to dim and back again.
Calibrating.
The light fixed at normal levels and Artie saw Gorth in front of her. He had a drink in his hand. She was back in the cocktail bar. Artie looked around – it was as crammed and lively as it had been earlier, but silent. The only noise was the persistent scraping.
Gorth’s mouth moved as he leaned in to speak to her; no sound came out. Artie watched his lips; he was asking her if she wanted a drink. She looked around. Gorth continued to turn to the bartender as if she had answered him. This had all happened before. A memory. But why was she reliving this memory? And without the surround sound?
Flickers of a deep non-colour writhed over the scene in front of her. Like the floaty things she sometimes saw in her eyes – but millions of them, and they were aware, moving with purpose.
The swarming fragments outlined Gorth’s cheeks and eyes. Something snapped into focus and she could see, overlaid on his human face, the subtly different faerie face that he had worn when they met. She could see through his glamour. And the flickering shreds that swarmed around him – that was magic. She could see magic.
The supermodel-thin woman sauntered into the memory. Artie watched, fascinated, as the reality emerged from beneath the glamour. She wouldn’t have thought it possible but the woman was even thinner. Her arms had two elbows each and the curling mouth spread from ear to ear, but the eyes were the same.
The dream pulled her out of this memory and sent her spinning through the scenes of her life in no sensible order. Each memory crawled with magic, some thicker than others. Artie delved into those magic saturated memories. There was so much she hadn’t seen. For her whole life. There was so much that no one saw. She submerged herself into the memory of March’s faerie ball; she almost swooned. So much here. Such rich food. Magic so thick that she could swim through it.
Artie felt a lurch in her chest, like there was something in there tearing to get out, reaching out to bask, to feed. It pushed outwards through her skin. The long tendrils she had noticed earlier strained out of her command. They reached deep into this well of power.
Blackness. Silence. Everything vanished. There was only the feeling of the power flowing in. Into the hard cold thing in her chest, which swelled and pulsed. A rough, sour taste rose in Artie’s mouth: grainy and rich, like soil. It choked her.
Voices emerged through the blanket of silence. She felt the pressure of hands on her arms.
Artie snapped awake.

Heartweed: Chapter 25

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Chapter 25

Artie lay in the low camp bed, drifting. The vaulted stone ceiling of the cellar Gorth had brought her to spun in and out of focus. She was coming apart. Whatever Gorth had injected her with was causing her to decohere. Her mind was spreading out through the room like a mist.
Artie struggled to concentrate, to hold herself in one piece. So difficult. If she let go, would she just keep on dissipating, through the walls, through the streets of York. Stretching further and becoming more thinly spread.
She saw a bright flash in the dim light of the cellar. A knife – the blade so often sharpened that it curved inwards. Gorth brough the knife down to her chest. He moved the blade through her skin – quick and deep. She howled, except that she didn’t, couldn’t. Her body was frozen. Her dispersed consciousness howled and screamed and battered itself against the walls.
She felt her dry lips peel away from each other and fall apart. Gorth had said that the pain would be excruciating. It was. Her heart raced. Every breath in brought sharp pain. Every breath out gurgled wet and brought the taste of blood onto her tongue.
He was killing her.
Gorth was killing her.
She stared up at him. His face looked carved from pale wood and a smear of blood crossed his jawline. His eyes were intent. He glanced up; saw her  looking.
“Almost over,” he said.
The sound of footsteps clattered on the stairs. Gorth turned to the doorway. The black-eyed man Gorth had sent out to keep watch lurched into the room.
“We’ve got company.”
Gorth’s face contorted into an angry snarl. “Stall them.” He turned back to Artie. How had she thought that face kind and handsome? It was cold – all business. The black-eyed man darted back through the door way.
He reached into her and the pain wracked her again. Her heart sped to the frequency of a hummingbird’s wings. Then the feeling was gone. So was the pain. A rough, ice-cold sensation hunkered at the centre of her. Her consciousness drained from the room back into the receptacle of her body.
Gorth loomed above her. His arms were drenched to the elbows in blood. In his hands a hunk of flesh trembled and fluttered. Her heart. The fluttering turned into a thump; spurts of blood squeezed out. It thumped again. The heart was still beating.
The black-eyed man fell heavily backwards through the door. A large dog sprang through after him and landed on the man’s chest; its muzzle peeled back from sharp teeth. The dog, or was it a wolf,  snapped at the man’s flailing arms. Gorth stood up, his face twisted in annoyance.
Artie was fading or the world was fading around her. She raised her head and blinked rapidly, trying to stay conscious. A man came through the door; he leapt nimbly over the struggling flesh and fur. It was the disapproving businessman from the bar, carrying a long, thin sword. He glanced between her and Gorth, his eyes widening as he saw her looking back at him.
He turned his attention back to Gorth and the sword point with it. The suited man stepped forwards. Dark shapes rushed from all over the room towards Gorth and enveloped him. He vanished away like March and Alex had. This time Artie could see the ripples in reality that he left behind. Not radiating, but awkward and fractal. Tantalising. She wanted to reach out with her hand – not her hand – and tear them wider.
A different kind of darkness rushed towards Artie. The last thing she saw was the suited man stepping towards her, then the world flickered out like a blown candle.

Heartweed: Chapter 24

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Chapter 24

The rain had started. It was the dismal kind that didn’t really fall, just hung in the air and crept down the back of Artie’s neck. Gorth turned his collar up and strolled away up the cobbled street. Artie followed, almost having to trot to keep up with his long-legged gait.
“What do you want, Artie?”
Gorth’s voice was soft and Artie wasn’t sure that she had heard him right.
“I told you: vengeance.” The needle-sharp fury stirred within Artie; she saw March’s gleeful face rise behind her eyelids.
Gorth nodded. “Vengeance.” He drew her into the shelter of a shop doorway. “You’re sure?”
The fury pushed out a stab of anger towards Gorth. “You said you could make me strong enough to kill March. Were you lying?”
Gorth frowned. “No. I wasn’t.”
“Then let’s do this. You said it would cost me. How much?”
Artie reached into her pocket and pulled out the wedge of notes. Gorth waved it away.
“Let’s talk price later. Once I’ve told you what you’ll be letting yourself in for.” He looked down at Artie, his face a careful blank. “I’ve recently come into possession of an object that can confer upon someone almost unlimited speed, strength and magical power.”
Artie chewed her lips. “What’s the catch?”
“It will transform you into something that isn’t human. And you will never be human again.” He paused. “And it will likely kill you.”
Artie shivered at the chill in his voice and the words it spoke. “How likely?”
“Only a handful have survived for more than a year after the procedure.”
“But even if it does kill me – I could have a year to get to March.”
“You could.”
Artie thought of her mum and dad, of Sam and James and ROb. March had threatened them all. They had been drawn into danger just because they knew her. She thought of Alex – laughing carefree Alex – and March’s face as he snuffed out her brother’s life. Her own life was a price worth paying. What else was she going to do with it?
“That’s fine,” she said.
“OK then.” Gorth straightened and pushed himslef out into the street.
“So how much will this cost?” Artie nervously fingered the money in her pocket. “You said rare and valuable.”
“It is.” He smiled back at her. The smile had something in it that made Artie blink, then it was gone. “More than money can buy.”
“What does that mean?”
“That I want something as rare and valuable in exchange.”
“What?”
“Are you a virgin?” Gorth tossed the words over his shoulder.  Artie stopped dead in the middle of the street.
“What?”
Gorth turned. “Have you had sex?”
Artie thought of Saturday night’s awkward grappling with Rob; she flushed. “No. I haven’t what business is it of yours?”
“It is relevant to our discussions.”
Artie felt her upper lip curl. “So the price is my virginity?”
“No – the price is your heart. A virgin’s heart.”
“Is that metaphorical?” Artie shivered. “Like I have to fall in love with you or something?”
Gorth stepped close to her. The smile was gone and his face was unreadable and as inhuman as if he had been wearing his faerie features. “Actually it is extremely literal. To affect the transformation I have to implant the object, the seed, within your chest.”
Artie stomach churned at the image, and the implications. Gorth continued. “Something goes in; something else must come out – your heart.”
Her voice was hoarse. “Wouldn’t that kill me straight away?”
“The seed’s magic would keep you alive.”
“The seed?”
“The object is a seed for a parasitic plant. You share your body with it, it shares its power with you.”
Artie took a faltering step backwards. She raised her hands as if to ward Gorth off. “This has just taken a turn for the way too surreal and terrifying. You want to take out my heart and replace it with a plant and I’ll still be alive?”
“And powerful and strong and fast.”
“And dying?”
“And dying.”
Artie laughed. A loud, jagged sound that tore at the inside of her throat. Gorth regarded her with an unblinking stare.
Artie closed her eyes. The image of Alex stepping into the road rose in her mind. Like it did again and again and always. He stepped into the road. She saw the flash of a car coming towards him. She screamed. Then it was all a blur. Except that this time it wasn’t a blur. She saw clearly. Each instant played out in excruciating slowness. The glaze fell from Alex’s eyes. Realisation, and fear, flooded into them instead. He saw her, opened his mouth to say her name. Then the impact – his body flying through the air.
She choked on a breath. It stuck in the middle of her chest. A sharp thing sticking into her heart. Opening her eyes she met Gorth’s stare. His soft eyes, pinched around the edges.
“My heart,” Artie said. A broken thing.
“That is the price. Are you sure that you can pay it?”
Artie nodded once, her bitten lips pressed together.
 

Heartweed: Chapter 23

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Chapter 23

Artie stepped off the 416 bus in York. The evening was grim; the threat of rain hung in the air. She pulled her jacket tighter around her and hunched her shoulders. Almost eight o’clock. She was supposed to meet Gorth at nine.
The past two days at college had been a special kind of hell. By the time she had turned up on Monday morning everyone had heard the story. How she’d freaked out on Rob and tried to stab him, then run into the garden to slit her wrists. Or so everyone was saying.
In the morning she had ignored it. In the afternoon she had walked around with her sleeves rolled up so they wouldn’t have to strain themselves to see. On Tuesday she had been tempted not to even turn up.
She’d kept her head down and stuck close to Sam and James – which hadn’t been difficult, they’d obviously made a pact between them to keep an eye on her. Artie was only a little irritated by this. Them keeping an eye on her had made it easier for her to keep an eye on them. Since March had made his threats she had been seeing him out of the corners of her eyes everywhere. Watching her with her parents. Spying on her eating lunch with Sam and James. Lounging against the wall of the corridor where she bumped into Rob – an excruciatingly awkward moment that ended with them avoiding each other’s eyes and hustling in opposite directions.
Toying with her is what he was doing. And part of her was glad for it. The longer he spun this out, the more time she had to do something about it. Even so, waiting for him to make his next move was wearing at her. Her stomach was in constant knots, wrung out like a dishtowel. But it would be over soon she hoped.
Her phone vibrated furiously. ‘Home’ flashed on the screen. Artie pushed the call to her voicemail. Five seconds later it rang again; she let it ring out this time. Two texts came in quick succession: one told her she had a voicemail, the other was from her mum.
“Where are you? Said you were going to Sam’s. We called. Not there. Phone us please.”
Artie switched the phone off.
She could have arranged an alibi with Sam, but she figured that with the way things were at the moment Sam would have just turned around and grassed Artie up to her parents. Everyone wanted to look after her. Like she couldn’t take care of herself. Like she wasn’t taking care of all of them. She bit her lip. Maybe they were right. It wasn’t like she had done a very good job of taking care of Alex.
Her phone banged against her leg as she walked – a guilty weight in her pocket. She paused and switched it back on. Another text announced another voicemail. Artie tapped out a quick text to her mum.
“Sorry. Got to sort something out. Don’t know hwen I’ll be back.”
She paused, the added:
“Love you.”
She sent the text and switched the phone back off before they had a chance to respond.
When would she be back? Gorth had said that he could make her powerful. By magic. Was he offering her a power that had to be worked for, training with some faerie sensei for months or years? Or would he make her strong enough to kill March tonight, as easily and offhandedly as he had killed Alex? Could she turn up back at home tomorrow and tell her parents – what? That she had killed the creature that they had never believed to have killed their son?
Either way Gorth had said that she would be changed forever. She couldn’t imagine what that would mean. Forever powerful – not bad. But you never get something for nothing. There was going to be a catch. Gorth had said that there would be a price, but not what that price would be. She didn’t think he was talking about the kind of price with a pound sign in front of it, or at least not only that.
She stopped at the cashpoint on the corner and withdrew the maximum: £300. She added the wedge of notes to the same amount that she had withdrawn yesterday. Six months of scanning shopping at the supermarket and hoarding her pocket money. Saving for a better computer. She hoped it would be enough. What was the going rate for magical powers?
Her heavy boots clattered on the stone streets as she crossed the city centre, heading for the bar where she was to meet Gorth. She hadn’t given it much thought until now, but a bar was a rubbish place to meet. With the height and build of a 12-year-old she’d never get past a bouncer. She hoped they checked ID at the bar and not on the door.
The streets were quiet. The cold and clammy kept everyone inside. Artie turned onto the narrow cobbled street where the bar was. The entrance to the bar was garishly lit with multicoloured fluorescent tubes. Artie slipped through the unguarded doorway into the crowded and noisy bar.
The crowd was made up mostly of uni students. There was no sign of Gorth, but she was over half an hour early. Artie shoved her way down the long room, using a well-judge elbow every now and then. The crush of people reminded her of March’s party. A bitter chill went through her despite the sticky heat of packed bodies; she looked around to reassure herself of the humanity.
The blue-haired gentry? Artie jolted to a stop and stared around again. She had thought she’d caught a glimpse of him standing in the shadows by the wall, but there was only a lone man in a suit there. As she stared up at him he met her eyes; disapproval smeared over his face. Like he never drank underage. Artie scowled back and turned away.
Ahead of her she saw Gorth leaning against the bar. He looked both exactly the same and different. His features were smoothed and dulled. A glamour to make him look human. He caught her eye and beckoned.
Artie slid through the crowd to his side. Gorth leaned down to her ear and shouted: “What will you have?”
“Orange juice.”
He raised an eyebrow. “Nothing stronger? Sure I can’t tempt you to a cocktail?”
Artie shook her head. “They won’t serve me alcohol, trust me.”
Gorth shrugged and turned to capture the bartender’s attention. Artie shifted her feet. What she had said was partly the truth. If she tried to get served alcohol she’d run a strong risk of getting ID’d and maybe asked to leave. But a bigger slice of truth was that getting drunk around handsome, confident guys wasn’t working out so well for her this month.
And he was handsome. She hadn’t noticed it before – too shocked at finding herself in a place that couldn’t exist, too worried for Alex – but Gorth was very good-looking. Even more with his features morphed into the more human shapes that she was used to.
He  turned and handed her a glass a smile crinkling around the corners of his soft brown eyes.
“So what’s the deal?” Artie asked.
Gorth shook his head. “Not here. Too noisy. I’m just waiting for another valued client. Then we can go somewhere to talk. OK?”
“OK.”
Gorth leaned back against the bar, his eyes sweeping the crowd. Artie sipped her orange juice.
A woman sliced through the crowd towards them. Artie gaped – she could have been a supermodel. Tall and slender – the woman defined the word statuesque. Her black hair was woven in elaborate ropes and her orange dress looked sprayed on. Artie felt every heterosexual male’s eye swivel to follow her across the room. The disapproving businessman was appraising the woman in minute detail.
The supermodel stopped beside Gorth and Artie, she towered over both of them. Artie felt a twinge of guilty hatred for this beautiful woman. She felt like a lump of wood in comparison. The woman pulled a folded piece of paper out of the top of her dress. She rolled her wrist over towards Gorth and he plucked the paper from between her fingertips. He read it. Nodded.
“Tomorrow?”
The woman nodded. Gorth pulled a roll of twenty pound notes from his pocket and unwrapped ten from the roll. He handed them to the woman and they vanished into the top of the dress. Artie sneaked a look around the bar. Nobody appeared to notice the dodgy-looking deal happening right under their noses. Even the horny gazes had been deflected. Were the three of them inside a glamour?
The woman’s eyes slid towards Artie. Artie blinked in surprise. The woman’s eyes were a luminous amber with thin horizontal leaf-shaped pupils. Artie realised that she was staring and shut her mouth.
“Um. Nice contacts.”
A lazy smile stretched across the woman’s face and she sashayed away. Artie turned to Gorth, he was grinning.
“Not contacts?”
Gorth shook his head. “Nope.” He drained his drink and jerked his head towards the door.
“Let’s talk.”
Artie put down her half-finished drink on the bar and followed him.

Heartweed: Chapter 22

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Chapter 22

Sam found her there a few minutes or an eternity later. She peeled Artie’s hand a finger at a time from around the knife handle and passed it to James. She muttered to him to call Artie’s parents. He slipped back into the house, past the clutch of curious in the doorway.
Sam was murmuring soothing words and stroking Artie’s upper arms, trying to catch Artie’s eye. Artie sat, aware of it all, but at the same time outside of herself. Her rage and terror had been spent, leaving her numb from the outside in.
I will see you again. Soon. March would come back. Who would he take from her next time? Her mum? Her dad? Sam? Rob? James? And all in the name of a game. Just for fun.
Artie felt the anger inside begin to kindle again. She remembered the glee in March’s eyes as Alex stepped under the speeding car. He had liked Alex, or at least found him useful. His wife’s favourite. But that hadn’t held him back from an act of deliberate cruelty.
James came back out in to the garden. He crouched down beside Sam.
“Her parents are on the way,” he murmured. “Let’s get her inside.”
Artie let them guide her to her feet and marshal her past the muttering group at the door. Chloe’s face stood out among the others – eager and greedy for scandal. Her eyes roved over Artie’s arms. It would have made a better story if she’d come out here to slit her wrists. Thought she doubted that lack of evidence would stop Chloe spreading the most outrageous version of events.
Sam stored her in the dining room, away from the party, until her dad arrived. There were murmured words at the door and concerned glances. Then she was helped to the car. Her dad drove her home in silence.

Artie closed her bedroom door. It cut down, but didn’t cut out the sound of her parent’s voices. She knew they were talking about her. Everyone was worried. Everyone was speaking in low voices around her.
Artie stripped for bed. She was surprised to find herself without a bra. It was probably still on the floor of Sam’s bedroom. Her mind flashed over what had happened with Rob, but she couldn’t really bring herself to care.
The alcohol-induced numbness had washed out of her, leaving a core of brittle and bright fury. For the first time since Alex’s death she felt clear and unconfused. The fury was clearer than grief, purer than plain anger, and it burned towards a since purpose: March’s death.
She sat with her laptop. Gorth had replied to her email.

I think I can give you something for vengeance.

A magic that will make you powerful enough to travel between the worlds and kill March yourself. There’s a price though. It will change you and there will be no going back.

Artie hammered her response in:

Whatever it takes.

Heartweed: Chapter 21

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Chapter 21

Artie was empty. In fact, she felt like she had gone past empty into whatever lay beyond. She’d thrown up until there was nothing left inside her except for the taste – sharp, slick and impossible to get rid of, no matter how much she spat.
Rob had rattled the door a couple of times. She’d told him to go away. Now Sam was there, giving off clouds off worry that permeated the door. Artie leaned her cheek against the chill tile surrounding the bath.
“I’m fine,” she said again. She wasn’t fine. Nowhere near. She wasn’t even on the same planet as fine.
Artie heard Sam move away from the door, murmuring to someone else. She drew herself to her feet and opened the frosted glass window. The cold air was like a slap in the face.
March smiled up at her from the garden. He beckoned, his long, white fingers coiling and uncoiling, and turned to disappear back into the shadows of the garden.
Artie’s own fingers released the window edge. They were numb and stiff; she hadn’t realised that she had been gripping that hard. She fumbled to fasten the rest of the buttons of her shirt. The landing was empty. Artie hurried downstairs. She could hear the sound of laughter and voices in the lounge, where the remainder of the party sounded like it had ended up.
The kitchen was almost empty. Chloe and her friend were leaning against the counter, their conversation had turned into alcohol-laced proclamations. Artie ignored them and they ignored her as she rooted through a drawer.
She stepped out into the still night. March wasn’t there. Artie strained her eyes into the shadows, waiting for them to adapt, and took a cautious step deeper into the garden.
“Cold iron.”
The liquid hiss came from behind her; Artie spun towards the voice, raising the serrated steak knife. She pointed it towards March’s heart. The faerie lolled against the sagging fence. Like spider-silk, his hair stirred in air currents that Artie couldn’t even feel. His loose clothes merged with the darkness. He gestured at the knife.
“A sensible, but useless, precaution.” His eyes bored into Artie’s. They were bottomless; they pulled her in and down. Artie came back to herself with a heart-stopping jerk, like waking from a falling dream, to find the knife reversed in her hand – the tip over her own heart.
“Do you see what I mean?” March said.
Artie blinked and focussed her eyes on a point beyond March’s right shoulder. She turned the knife away from herself and dropped the hand gripping it to waist height, holding it there stiffly, not trusting it.
“Murderer.” The acid in the word burned Artie’s tongue. “I’m going to kill you.”
She didn’t see him move, but he was in front of her, so close that the floating strands of his hair stroked her face. He gripped her wrist and leaned even closer. His breath was hot on Artie’s face as he whispered: “Are you sure of that?”
Artie started to twist away. March pushed his thumb deep into the tendons on the inside of her wrist; the pain froze her. March laughed and flung her arm away with such force that she staggered back, struggling to keep her feet.
“Why are you here? What do you want?” Artie almost sobbed.
A rictus smile. “Why, to ruin your fun – the way that you ruined mine.” The smile transformed into a snarl. “I don’t forgive such impertinences.”
“So you killed Alex, what?” Her voice felt hollow, “To spite me? To hurt… me?”
March’s shoulders rose and fell like a sea swell. “You do not seem to be very hurt over your brother’s death. Already throwing yourself into that handsome youth.” His lips curled. “I wonder if my wife would like him as a replacement for Alex. She was quite addicted to your brother. No other tidbits I have brought for her cut through her vapid melancholy quite the way he did.”
Artie screamed and lunged, the knife in her fist. March sidestepped deftly and she tripped on the edge of the flowerbed. Her shoulder slammed into the fence. She sprawled face down at his feet in the dirt.
“You know what I think?” Artie glared up at him and spat earth from her mouth. “I think you just killed Alex because he was better at giving it to your wife than you are.” She tensed for the kick or the blow, but neither came. March went still.
“Perhaps.” He crouched down. “But your brother is dead and no longer interesting. You are interesting.” He reached a hand to touch her face. Artie slashed at him with the knife – and missed, again.
“So are you going to kill me now?”
“No,” March stood. “I am going to tear you apart. Those you love – the blonde girl, the tall boy, your lover, your mother, your father – I will kill them, and anyone else you allow into your heart, instead. One at a time. I might even take years to do it, but be assured I will take them all from you in the most painful ways possible.”
He straightened the cuffs of his shirt,
“This has been most amusing. I will see you again. Soon.”
The shadows roils around him and he vanished. Artie stared through the space he had left for a long moment, then put her face back down into the soft soil. Tears streamed from her eyes.

Heartweed: Chapter 20

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Chapter 20

Sam’s room, with its single bed, was the only empty one. Artie strode in. She snapped on the desk lamp. She turned to see Rob lingering in the doorway, his posture a mixture of eager and reluctant.
“Are you sure about this?”
She nodded and held out her left hand towards him. Her right brought the bottle of blue to her lips. As a magic potion the alcohol was failing her. It dulled everything but the grief and had brought the things she wanted to forget into sharper focus, which the real world blurred away.
“I mean, you’ve had a lot to drink.” Rob hadn’t left the doorway. Artie laughed and put the empty down on Sam’s desk.
“So have you.”
Rob shrugged. “I just don’t want you to do anything you’ll despise me for tomorrow.”
He wasn’t going to start this. And she didn’t really know how to. Artie felt a wave of irritation followed by one of embarrassment. Maybe he didn’t want her. Maybe he was just watching out for her, on Sam’s or James’s orders.
Then he stepped into the room and closed the door behind him. Artie let out the breath she had been holding. She reached behind him and twisted the lock closed, pressing her body against his. He did want her. She could feel his erection digging into her stomach through the layers of their clothing. It seemed disconcertingly large and thick. Artie felt a flutter of panic in the pit of her stomach. Was that normal? Was that good? Would it hurt?
With the door closed Artie felt like she was in an oven. Her skin felt hot, like her blood was simmering beneath its surface. Their alcohol-fumed breath created a close cocoon of hot, sticky air around them. Artie swayed against Rob; he put firm arms around her to steady her and the flutter of panic in her stomach sweetened into anticipation. She put her hand on his face nad pulled his mouth down to hers.
Artie had kissed boys before. A boy. On holiday. She had been drunk then, but then again she was drunk now. The kiss felt clumsy and she felt like she was just pretending to know what to do. Maybe Rob would call the whole thing off. But he didn’t seem to mind. His reluctance had vanished and he was working hard to push as much of their bodies together as he could. He pushed his lips and tongue into hers. His hands slipped between her shirt and jeans and ran up he bare back.
Artie didn’t know what she was supposed to do with her own hands. Right now they were tangled in his hair, closed to his neck. She tightened them, pulling at his hair, and Rob grunted into her lips. His hands clamped on her hips. She gasped with surprise as lifted her up. Their kiss broke. Without thinking about it she wrapped her legs around his waist.
Rob carried her to the window and sat her on the edge of the high sill. She put her hands down to steady herself. His face was millimetres from hers, his breath heavy and rapid, his trousers straining. He put his hand in his pocket and brought out a foil square – a condom.
“You sure you want to?”
Artie swallowed and wetted her lips. She looked up into his eyes. He had such nice eyes, like syrup. Eyes she could drown in, could drown her sorrows in. She nodded. Something still held him back. She reached for the waistband of his trousers. The skin beneath it was so hot it scorched her. She snapped the top button open and this snapped his hesitation. He kissed her again with bruising strength. His crotch ground into hers and she reacted by tightening her legs around his waist. This left her hands no room to continue undoing his fly. Artie tried to crush the glimmer of relief at that fact and lose herself in Rob’s kiss, in the physical sensations.
Rob fumbled her shirt open. His hands were on her body, pushing up under her bra, kneading and rubbing into her flesh.. His lips broke away from hers and moved down her throat. She tipped her head back and away to the side to make room for his damp kisses.
At the side of her vision she could see the dark space outside of the window. She looked away and quickly looked back. There was someone out there. The light spilling from the kitchen window into the garden illuminated only his feet, but Artie knew that whoever it was was watching them.
Rob was working his way back to her lips. She turned to meet the kiss and was almost swallowed by it. Let them bloody well watch, Artie thought with a giddy release. She reached up and pushed her shirt off her shoulders; after a half second of hesitation she unfastened her bra and dropped it to the floor.
Rob stepped back, his hands on her waist. Her skin prickled as his eyes roved over her. The memory of the ‘no tits’ comment rushed to the front of her mind and she felt colour rushing to her cheeks. Rob’s face was in shadow and hard to read.
“You’re amazing,” he said, and pulled his t-shirt over his head. Artie let her eyes and then her fingers trail down his chest. It was lightly muscled; the patch of hair in its centre, soft.
Rob’s burning hot hands moved to her waistband and started to unfasten her jeans. His mouth dropped to one of her breasts. In his eagerness he pushed Artie back into the window. She shivered; the cold glass on the skin of her back working against the heat of Rob’s lips and tongue on her nipple in a way that drove all thoughts from her mind. Artie heard herself moan.
A rough chill swept through Artie that had nothing to do with the cold glass at her back. The icy blade of someone’s attention stabbed into the back of her skull. The watcher in the garden? Somehow she could feel his eyes slicing into her.
Artie stiffened, causing Rob to stop his fumblings at her zipper. A swollen, sick feeling rolled around her stomach. She turned away from Rob to stare out into the garden again. The figure was still there. It stepped forwards into the light and Artie saw the face that she had expected to see. March. His black shark-eyes fixed on her. His face twisted in amusement.
The sick feeling grew until it filled her up and raced up her throat. Artie gagged. She shoved Rob back away from her. Ignoring his bewildered concern, she slid from the sill to the floor.  She snatched up her shirt from the floor and bolted towards the bathroom, the shirt clutched to her bare chest.